Inability to deal with stress

It is interesting to be faced with a flaw we didn't realize we had. I tend to thing I'm a fairly strong, stoic person. Can you say DENIAL? I know you could.

Man it stings to be so wrong. I haven't even had that bad of a day. This is how it all went down...

Hit the grocery store which is always kinda tiring, IMO.

Had to drop the hammer on the kids for constantly breaking the rules. I hated that. I hate feeling like the bad guy even when they basically drove me to the bad guy store and bought the outfit for me. Then after they were in for the night they tried to weasel more perks out of me. ARGH!

The dog barking at everything, every knock, every movement out the window... it HAS to stop. Her bark is brain piercing and sets me on edge faster than anything.

I got my first two orders through my new site. YAY! But then... "omg I have to do 6 toys and find the right socks for them and have them perfect" set in and I started feeling overwhelmed.

Chris will be home in 24 hours and the house needs to be cleaned and organized. And then I start feeling panicky about all the stuff we have to get done during the times he is home. And he is really tired when he is home so I often feel like his weeks home, which I first thought would be like time off for me, are even more stressful than the weeks he is gone.

The dog is STILL not figuring out the house training thing. I do not think she gives a shit. If we manage to get her out when she feels like going that's fine but if not it doesn;t bother her to go right on the floor. She esp. can't be trusted near carpet. So we are "tomato staking" her right now... leash on and with a person 24/7 or crated. So I go in my room and Teagan had her leash on the doorknob, went to get water and left her alone on my carpet... yep you guessed it. At least it was only pee.

That was my last straw, I was on the phone with Chris and I yelled at the kids and dog (BAD MOM!) and shut myself in my room and got all teary. Yes, there are some um, hormone issues going on right now too but seriously I HATE that I am this shakable. Ugh, it may well be time for happy pills because I'm not sure how I will do when/if the time comes that Chris isn't just gone for 7 days but maybe 14 or 28.

Now I have to try to find some bit of happy and perky and get ready to do INUIY in 2 hours. Or at least tap into the bitchy side of it all instead of the whiny. lol

My wonderful children

I took this photo for some family and friends that wanted to see the children and then I decided that I would make it my photo/blog of the day.



I know all parents are biased but I really adore my children. They are two amazing human beings and I feel very fortunate that I get to be their Mom.

how many readers will I bore today

I'm wishing I had a page with diff sections , one for crafts, one for family stuff and maybe another for homeschooling. lol

I've been rather productive this week but it's all domestic crap. I made a shark and a puppy... i'll do pics later, too lazy now.

Yesterday the kids and I made ketchup and I've made homemade tortillas twice this week... SO yummy. I'm totally bonding with hillbillyhousewife.com and her from scratch and frugal ideas.

Well, I guess I missed a day or two

I can't remember. lol

Dh (dear husband, yes it's a lame "net-ism" but I'm lazy and it's short so suck it!) has been home for a 4 day weekend and I've been occupied. We've had a great time, played games with the kids, eaten some great food and some junk, watched tv and movies and basically reconnected. It has been a wonderful time but today is the last day so I have to think about getting out of vacation mode. But not just yet...

This morning he cleaned the kitchen and now he has the kids at the pool. *dreamy sigh* When they get home we have grilling, banana splits and a family movie planned.

Long weekends are pretty awesome.

Is this month over yet?

I was super duper productive today.

Cleaned the kitchen 3 times

Made a huge freezer batch of waffles for the spawn

Put away my laundry

Washed the kids bed stuff

Read Atonement for 2 hours

I was going to start sewing on the elephant but I've managed to lose the color I set aside SIGH so now I have to re-colormatch so I can start tomorrow.

And lastly I played games with each kid, had dinner and watched tv with my hubby.

CRAP

I can't believe I forgot yesterday. Bleh

We had a huge nasty storm in the early hours. Lots of tornadoes, some major building damage in town and other areas but we were fine. My comp wanted to pretend that it was dead though and I wasn't real happy with that. I finally got it back and running around lunch time.

Then we did Chess and home/dinner/fambly stuffs the rest of the night. Dh is home today, he's out right now and then we are all going to Kelda's, he's going to drop us off and He and Teagan are going to go off and do some father/daughter stuff. *love*


I need to finish that damn giraffe this weekend and start on my book club book, other than that I'm just vegging I guess.

A real blog entry, I swear!

No kid pics or sock creatures... just words.

Holy crap, It's almost MAY! Ugh, time seems to be slipping by me at an ever increasing speed, is there some kind of time warp that correlates with age? Time seemed to move by so slowly when I was younger and now it just whips past leaving me in the dust. Sigh

I've been busier lately with sock stuff and my home has suffered from the neglect. So I think today is going to be a domestic day. Cleaning, cooking, doing some prep stuff to get through the week with as little trauma as possible.

All of my recent orders have been shipped and the one that have arrived have been well received which makes me amazingly happy. I have a few new orders to start on this week and that gave me the excuse I needed to go sock shopping @ Target... YAY!

Yesterday we took the kids bowling and then we went to see Horton Hears a Who, it was such fun. We will buy it when it comes out. Cam got to try out his new ball and it rocked, I think he will improve as he gets more used to it. It's a 12lb, the score for his first game was 112 I think and he bowled a 99 his second game. Teagan bowled an 86 on her first game of the day!!! No bumpers even so it's a true 86. We were very impressed.

Ok... it's almost 5am, my hubby's stupid alarm clock made sure I was up and awake at 3, grrr. So I might as well go get started on that kitchen before the kids get up and harass me.

I love productive weekends

Well... my own version of being productive that is.

Yesterday my darling husband, dh, made dinner all on his own and I sat on my arse reading and finishing a book. It was 37 by Maria Beaumont and it was total shite!!! Bleh

Today is a loverly, lazy Sunday. I hate time changes as a rule so that goes without saying. Dh took the kids to the park today. They left at 11am and it is now 3:30 and they are still off having fun. I've wired/stuffed 8 bunny ears and 8 mini octo legs, stuffed and closed the bunny crew bodies and now I have to do the nose/mouth embroidery and then attach all the bit together in the next few days.

The dishwasher is running, the kitchen is clean and ready for dinner prep.. steaks on the grill. YUM!

I painted a mini terra cotta pot with a base coat of white. It will become an extra pin cushion for my craft area, once I finish with it. And I actually had time to read a few chapters of a new book. All in all, this has been a pretty awesome day. :D

Long time no blog

Well school started again and with it ALL of the kids activities.

Homeschool meetings, teen committee and Irish dance on Tuesdays

Homeschool bowling league (Cam just won a medal for most wins for the first part of the year. YAY, Cameron!) on Wednesdays

Ice skating on Thursdays and now Teagan is doing dance 2x a week so Irish again on Thursdays.

And then of course other assorted things here and there... such is life when you have kids, especially when those kids are around 24 hours a day. lol


Ok well the comp update is... XP was a bust and a total waste of $100 - bleh. It wouldn't recognize my modem so I couldn't get online. So I ended up wiping xp and reinstalling Ubuntu. Apparently the computers that be want me to learn Linux.

I've read 3 books so far and gone without soda and fast food for 12 full days. I had some recent temptation due to some pretty big real life drama that left me with a painful NEED for comfort food but I fought the urge and feel much better that I'm still on track.

I've lost my first 2lbs of the year so yay me. :D

Our salt dough ornaments are painted and sealed. Our INUIY girl looks so much prettier with a coat of paint on her. What do you think?



ok bye for now xoxo