Inability to deal with stress

It is interesting to be faced with a flaw we didn't realize we had. I tend to thing I'm a fairly strong, stoic person. Can you say DENIAL? I know you could.

Man it stings to be so wrong. I haven't even had that bad of a day. This is how it all went down...

Hit the grocery store which is always kinda tiring, IMO.

Had to drop the hammer on the kids for constantly breaking the rules. I hated that. I hate feeling like the bad guy even when they basically drove me to the bad guy store and bought the outfit for me. Then after they were in for the night they tried to weasel more perks out of me. ARGH!

The dog barking at everything, every knock, every movement out the window... it HAS to stop. Her bark is brain piercing and sets me on edge faster than anything.

I got my first two orders through my new site. YAY! But then... "omg I have to do 6 toys and find the right socks for them and have them perfect" set in and I started feeling overwhelmed.

Chris will be home in 24 hours and the house needs to be cleaned and organized. And then I start feeling panicky about all the stuff we have to get done during the times he is home. And he is really tired when he is home so I often feel like his weeks home, which I first thought would be like time off for me, are even more stressful than the weeks he is gone.

The dog is STILL not figuring out the house training thing. I do not think she gives a shit. If we manage to get her out when she feels like going that's fine but if not it doesn;t bother her to go right on the floor. She esp. can't be trusted near carpet. So we are "tomato staking" her right now... leash on and with a person 24/7 or crated. So I go in my room and Teagan had her leash on the doorknob, went to get water and left her alone on my carpet... yep you guessed it. At least it was only pee.

That was my last straw, I was on the phone with Chris and I yelled at the kids and dog (BAD MOM!) and shut myself in my room and got all teary. Yes, there are some um, hormone issues going on right now too but seriously I HATE that I am this shakable. Ugh, it may well be time for happy pills because I'm not sure how I will do when/if the time comes that Chris isn't just gone for 7 days but maybe 14 or 28.

Now I have to try to find some bit of happy and perky and get ready to do INUIY in 2 hours. Or at least tap into the bitchy side of it all instead of the whiny. lol

I'm so bad lately!

We've been busy busy busy.

I've been planning the new school year and I'm almost ready for the purchase part. That is always the most exciting (and often nerve wracking) part of the school year. And then the boxes start arriving and you get to go buy new school supplies... sigh, it is just bliss.

Or, I'm a weirdo... that's also possible. lol

Things are going well in Casa de Fibres.

I'm having a website made, that's my big news. WOOHOO! The husband is getting back into the swing of work after the 6 week layoff.

The little found dog's former owners never searched for her as far as I can tell and after seven weeks I am no longer searching for them and I finally feel like she is ours.

We have a moving update... the new plan is to move when our lease is up in November and rent a house there. It's foolish to buy (IMO) without living there for a while anyway and if we have to rent regardless, we might as well rent there and make sure we like it before setting down roots. I will miss the fabulous friends I have made but I guess that's to be expected.

Ok I think that is it for this quick update... I'll be back soon with a link to my brand new website so stay tuned!

Frustration

We are planning on moving, not sure if I have blogged about that but I think I did. We are moving to TX. We were hoping to move by the end of the year. Our apt lease is up in Nov. and we can go month to month but we would have loved to have that be a short term option. But it seemed like pushing the move until Spring 2010 was more realistic.

Now the time off work is eating our savings and pushing back the prospect of moving even further. It is so frustrating. Our apt is small and at first it seemed fine but as time goes on I swear it feels like the rooms are shrinking in on us. I'm so tired of not having my own washer/dryer, esp. today after having a pukey girl last night. I'm sick of putting quarters in the loaded machines to find out after the fact that they are broken. Ugh so many other little annoyances. I do not know how we can possibly live here for another year, year and a half... TWO?!

I'm so tempted to start researching the rental market in TX and just heading out when our lease expires.

Has it really been THAT long since the last entry?

Wow, bad blogger indeed!

I've had a bunch of orders. You can head over to Sole Mate Toys to see some of my recent orders.

There is also a long story involving a new addition... The kids found a dog, so far we can't find the owner so she is here at least for now. We are calling her Pepper.

this is the day they found her


After grooming



I've become the mother of a teenager since my last post. Wish me luck.

I ordered some business stuff from vistaprint and I LOVE IT!


And last but not least... my husband has been home since March 16 with no end in sight. This layoff might be the death of me. ;)

My lolcats

My furry girls.

Would you like to touch my monkey?

Zombie Monkey


Serious Monkeys

creative energy

A local real life friend helped me out yesterday. I needed my biz cards tweaked. She is awesome and if you need any graphics work done or website design... or anything you should go to Cara Creates now!