I just posted this to a local mom board but I've decided I'm going to blog it also.
I need... something
I don't know what. More friends maybe? I have acquaintances but most don't seem to move past the being friendly when we are around each other... we don't talk on the phone or do anything together.
I moved to LA from FL 2 years ago and I left my bff of 17 years behind and I'm still sad over it.
I homeschool so I have my kids a lot and dh is applying for an offhore job so you know how that goes. lol I'm 32 and I have a 12yo son so playgroups and mom things have often been weird because I was a younger mom with an older child.
I'm not even sure what I want really because I don't have $ to really go out with friends even if I had them. I think I just needed to vent and feel sorry for my lonely self for a minute. I guess it's just one of those days.
The older I get the more I'm feeling this sense of being... lost. I think part of it is that the kids are getting older and in turn require so much less of me. They are easier to care for in many ways and leaves my resources less taxed and I'm wanting something to fill that void. My little biz is fairly successful considering it's size but I need more interpersonal connections. I just need more of something.