It is interesting to be faced with a flaw we didn't realize we had. I tend to thing I'm a fairly strong, stoic person. Can you say DENIAL? I know you could.
Man it stings to be so wrong. I haven't even had that bad of a day. This is how it all went down...
Hit the grocery store which is always kinda tiring, IMO.
Had to drop the hammer on the kids for constantly breaking the rules. I hated that. I hate feeling like the bad guy even when they basically drove me to the bad guy store and bought the outfit for me. Then after they were in for the night they tried to weasel more perks out of me. ARGH!
The dog barking at everything, every knock, every movement out the window... it HAS to stop. Her bark is brain piercing and sets me on edge faster than anything.
I got my first two orders through my new site. YAY! But then... "omg I have to do 6 toys and find the right socks for them and have them perfect" set in and I started feeling overwhelmed.
Chris will be home in 24 hours and the house needs to be cleaned and organized. And then I start feeling panicky about all the stuff we have to get done during the times he is home. And he is really tired when he is home so I often feel like his weeks home, which I first thought would be like time off for me, are even more stressful than the weeks he is gone.
The dog is STILL not figuring out the house training thing. I do not think she gives a shit. If we manage to get her out when she feels like going that's fine but if not it doesn;t bother her to go right on the floor. She esp. can't be trusted near carpet. So we are "tomato staking" her right now... leash on and with a person 24/7 or crated. So I go in my room and Teagan had her leash on the doorknob, went to get water and left her alone on my carpet... yep you guessed it. At least it was only pee.
That was my last straw, I was on the phone with Chris and I yelled at the kids and dog (BAD MOM!) and shut myself in my room and got all teary. Yes, there are some um, hormone issues going on right now too but seriously I HATE that I am this shakable. Ugh, it may well be time for happy pills because I'm not sure how I will do when/if the time comes that Chris isn't just gone for 7 days but maybe 14 or 28.
Now I have to try to find some bit of happy and perky and get ready to do INUIY in 2 hours. Or at least tap into the bitchy side of it all instead of the whiny. lol